Getting somewhere

:3 <3 <3 well today turned out quite well. this picture...

Sun, 08 May 2011 22:03:00 -0400

:3 <3 <3 well today turned out quite well. this picture only made a great day better lol ;D happy mothers day!

Thinking

Mon, 11 Apr 2011 02:38:35 -0400

its been a little…demanding today. I cant even think of the right words to describe how I feel so please bare with my ambiguity. I thought about some things that have been on my mind lately. In short I felt behind. I’m trying to push forward to catch up but its hard when you feel like you are blindly running into the unknown. Life doesn’t have a convenient little sign saying “Hey! you are almost there…10 miles ahead” to let me know that I’m running towards something. sometimes that “unknown” makes me want to just shy away from the challenge and cry. Its hard to be optimistic but I know I need to push onwards. as my Unnie would say “you better cut that talk” and you know what she is right. I’m just encountering a minor bump in that perpetual path and more than likely I will find a couple of those potentially tripping obstacles. I need to pick up the pace and run head on to meet the challenge. Its like the saying goes, “the only things that are worth it in life are the things you need to work hard for”. so I’m trying. I really am. I don’t want to hide behind a complacent smile. I want to smile genuinely. Now I finally feel like I’m getting somewhere.

yes….<3 thank you, mindy!

Tue, 05 Apr 2011 14:04:13 -0400

yes….<3 thank you, mindy!

looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove <—my new idol

Mon, 04 Apr 2011 17:35:52 -0400

looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove <—my new idol

Photo

Mon, 04 Apr 2011 17:35:11 -0400

Photo

Mon, 28 Mar 2011 02:12:59 -0400

Getting somewhere

Mon, 28 Mar 2011 01:27:00 -0400

I caved. For about 9 months now I’ve gone about weighing my options about whether or not I thought it prudent to air out my personal life in such a public way. well needless to say the slightly daring (albeit reckless) side of me said: take a chance. So here I am, a girl who is constantly changing as time goes by and aimlessly searching for love. Please hold back your groans. I know the notion of “searching for Prince Charming” is overdone and seemingly an impossible task today but the romantic in me refuses to believe that chivalry is dead. I know I sound silly or even naive with my rosy image of love but is it wrong to be hopeful that its out there? Yes, I do set myself up for this by watching romantic classics, devouring stories of fated encounters, and obsessively looking for new romantic comedy dramas. Especially the last one. I realized this only today when I finished watching Goong for the sixth time. I became so engrossed with the characters tumultuous relationship that quickly grew into something precious as feeling were realized and icy exteriors began to melt away. I felt as if Shin’s princess was me. No, I am not delusional. only wishful. I find the idea of being held in an embrace, being softly kissed senselessly, or feeling that warm tingle flood my body at the slightest touch, something to look forward to. Something both tangible and intangible. So I decided today with absolute resolve that I want to be the heroine of my own romantic comedy. I think its possible to love and be loved. Its not at all silly to believe it still exists or that my own “prince” is out there. I am fully aware that life cant be put on hold to search for it and yes I will have to wait for it longer than most others are willing to wait for and of course it wont be obstacle free. Its up to me to remember that only the best things are worth waiting for. So if it happens to find me today, next month, or five years from now its okay because it will be worth it. and with this I feel like I am finally getting somewhere…