its been a little…demanding today. I cant even think of the right words to describe how I feel so please bare with my ambiguity. I thought about some things that have been on my mind lately. In short I felt behind. I’m trying to push forward to catch up but its hard when you feel like you are blindly running into the unknown. Life doesn’t have a convenient little sign saying “Hey! you are almost there…10 miles ahead” to let me know that I’m running towards something. sometimes that “unknown” makes me want to just shy away from the challenge and cry. Its hard to be optimistic but I know I need to push onwards. as my Unnie would say “you better cut that talk” and you know what she is right. I’m just encountering a minor bump in that perpetual path and more than likely I will find a couple of those potentially tripping obstacles. I need to pick up the pace and run head on to meet the challenge. Its like the saying goes, “the only things that are worth it in life are the things you need to work hard for”. so I’m trying. I really am. I don’t want to hide behind a complacent smile. I want to smile genuinely. Now I finally feel like I’m getting somewhere.